Francis came to see me after you left. Shaw sent him. I’ve been putting the puzzle together. She sent several people to talk to me yesterday and Francis today and told them all the same wrong information about me. I don’t know how many others she told that haven’t spoken to me. I texted her and told her to call them off. I didn’t bother you or her yesterday. I had my mental breakdown quietly in my cabin except for the interference she sent. She texted me back to say she did it to calm me down. It’s not her fucking job to calm me down. Or to sandbag me as emotionally unstable to the point of unreliability to every Warden I work with. And I told her so not nicely, if it comes up.
I hope you can still come by tonight. I just couldn’t abide that. It might be impossible for me to work in counselling or on the committee doing the code of conduct if that sticks. It seems to be sticking. So much for having any respect. I guess I should have expected that to happen eventually. I AM a mess.
I would like to go running. Yes. And I should probably eat something besides Twizzlers and stale popcorn. So dinner with you would be lovely. And we can talk. Because I think I said things wrong, but I also don't think I am wrong, if that makes sense.
I’d like it, either way. It’s been a week. And that was just yesterday. [Will can probably hear the nervous laugh at that, even through text.] And I’m sorry if I made things harder for you. I tried not to. That was the heart of the potential problem it took a village to be concerned about, apparently. I know it’s not meritless. I’m working on it. I promise.
I’ll apologize to Shaw, too. I’m just not ready yet.
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I hope you can still come by tonight. I just couldn’t abide that. It might be impossible for me to work in counselling or on the committee doing the code of conduct if that sticks. It seems to be sticking. So much for having any respect. I guess I should have expected that to happen eventually. I AM a mess.
I’m sorry.
I love you.
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I don't think it'll stick, but let's talk about it tonight, okay? Unless it's really pressing. Because I agree, but I want details.
I can bring by some dinner tonight, if you want. We can have an early night in. And let me know if you want to go running before that.
I love you, too.
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And let's go running, then. I'm not sure if Shaw will want to be in the Enclosure for that.
[ So they might have some time on their own there, too. But it'll be wolfy. ]
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I’ll apologize to Shaw, too. I’m just not ready yet.