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I don't know what else to do.

I'm really trying

Really

I just

Why can't I get this right?

I fucking suck at this.

At what, the new Speakeasy rule? I think it's going well.

It's a compromise, which means no one's going to be totally happy about it. But you're explaining things well, and you've been really responsible with the whole thing. You're going above and beyond what effort I would've given it.

I'm trying so hard

For you

Because he's important

To you

All I want is to do right by you and it doesn't fucking matter

Cause I fucking suck at this

I'm never going to get it right

I found a peaceful solution

I was careful with my tone

At least I thought I was

I tried so fucking hard

I really did

I promise

Harkin, I see that. And you don't suck at it. And it does matter, okay? That you try. But you don't have to get Malcolm. Most people don't.

I don't think he was trying to be combative, but I also know his tone can come across poorly. And if you fight, you fight. I'm not going to hate you for that. Please understand that.

It's okay. You're doing right by me. You always do.

You want to come over? You sound like you need more dogs.

No

Not safe

To come

[A breath's pause.]

I asked for help

I did!

I degraded myself publicly and asked for fucking help

Why wouldn't he do that?

Why did he have to be such a cunt when I was trying so hard to not be a cunt?

I asked

More than once

Walked him through it

Tried

I thought

Fuck

I dunno

Fuck

Nevermind

[Another breath.]

Don't come

I'm not safe to be around

You sound like you're having an attack, panic or otherwise.

I'm going to come check on you, I'm sorry. I'll give you some time first.

But know you're not alone. And I don't want you to break yourself apart trying to please me. I'll still be your brother, no matter what.

[It takes him a few moments to answer.]

It's fine

I just

It's fine

Don't come

Laters ok

I'll ping you

Later

It's fine

[ He'd try to give advice to try visualization and breathing exercises, but Will doesn't know if that would even help. Maybe he'll check on that when things are calmer. ]

It's not fine. I'll do what I can to help you through it.

But ok. I'll come later.

Thanks

I know

I'm bad

But you make me want to be better

I'm trying

Means a lot

You understanding

[ He waits about an hour before he can't stand it anymore and heads to Sweeney's cabin. Unfortunately, the guy's not there. That's...probably good, though, right? Maybe Maggie got to him. Maybe Laura?

He waits another half an hour before finally sending another text. ]

Hey, where are you? Are you all right?

[It takes him almost a full minute to reply.]

Alright

I'm alright

Safe

Don't worry

You're still welcome to come by. Always are.

Are you with someone?

Yeah

Nyx

Glad to hear it.

Take care of yourself, okay? I know it's cheesy, but I love you. I don't want you to hurt. Definitely not on my account.

I'll stop pestering you for now, though.

[Well over a minute passes.]

I'll try

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